I received an email from my mother today telling me my numerology birth sign predictions for this month. It seems a bit late in the day to be getting your July ‘numerologyscope’ (for want of a better word), but she wanted me to see it because she felt that what had been prophesied was something that she could already see happening in my life. So this is what was written for my sign (which, in case anyone is curious, is apparently a ‘5 Tai chi star’)

“Tai Chi it’s time to find your child within. The little person you were, full of hopes and dreams, needs to come out. See the world through their eyes again. Be curious and remember your dreams. It’s a great way to remember why you are where you are now.”

Numerology is nothing I have ever delved in so I don’t know if I believe in it or not, but I have to confess to spotting a certain correlation to what was predicted and how I feel right now. I do feel a sense of personal unburdening – a subtle shedding of those insecurities and doubts; of those sensations of guilt or just that heavy weight of believing myself not to be good enough or worthy enough.

That pesky, pernickity parrot that has been squatting on my shoulder for so long and chattering on about how useless I was seems to have buggered off to pick on someone else. A delicate little butterfly has taken his place; as light as a feather and whose beauty and gentle presence reminds me that miracles can happen and people can transcend into something beyond anything they could possibly have imagined – well not since they were a child anyhow, when silly fantastical dreams were still allowed.

This little butterfly is very welcome and can stay as long as she likes if she just continues to help me conjure back those old discarded hopes and dreams. Who knows what might happen next – maybe I’ll even start to think about fulfilling some of them.